Double rainbow

What if someone asked you how you want your life to unveil? Would it be - a happy, loving childhood followed by a partytime adolescence, finding your perfect career and a job, settling down with a gorgeous partner, having a baby and travel through life with ease? Well, in that case- I'm living the dream. But, still, living in the moment is the catch of the day. I often find myself dwelling on the past - how wonderful it was on my wedding day for example. It's not that married life hasn't been all that cream with a cherry on top, don't get me wrong! But somehow I usually dwell in the best moment UNTIL now and try to experience it all over again.

I looked at our wedding pictures and video so many times- it would make a normal person puke - like- what's wrong with you? It came down to me asking my husband what's my favourite movie of all times - and his response was - our wedding video!!! Hilarious, isn't it? Weeeell, not so much, because I have to face my demons- and my demon is- being afraid that life was so good to me until now, I have to remember and stay in touch with all the good feelings it provided me with, because tomorrow might not be so kind. And to be honest with you- this is not some small unimportant fear. It sometimes goes to the extreme of me actually thinking I probably will die soon, because it just can't be all that good ALL the time! Eeehh, now I'm just braging ;) well to tell you honestly - since I started to think more positive- my life has been ALL THAT! It started with trying a simple trick a friend once told me: to try to see a ray of sun through the clouds on a foggy day - and I mean literally! I am fortunate to have very good visualising skills, and could really see that. And it continued with "lying" to myself life is sooo good, even though times were rough.

I especially had to change my thoughts while commuting back and forth to my work. It's usually mine and the most people's time to reflect on their day (and you wonder why there are so many accidents? hihihi). I often said- this was so good that probably something bad is waiting for me around the corner. And guess what- I was usually right! Now since I changed my thoughts to - "WOW, SO MANY WONDERFUL THINGS ARE HAPPENING AND IT WILL ONLY GET BETTER!" Guess what (yes, again ;) I am right, AGAIN! (I just now realised I wrote a post about that in the past, but hey, am I to blame I have all that? Hey, blame it on God ;))) Ufff, we actually "fought" with my friends in Rome over who God has blessed more in our lives. Hihihihi, beautiful memories...