How annoying is that? You live your teen and twenty's like it's your last day on earth, than all of a sudden, you realize, that it might not be and you start to calm down. You start listening to your body, which is saying- you party to much, you rest to little, you eat all the wrong things...
You want your pulse to slow down, you like it like that... you see the world around you going with the same tempo as before, but you feel good. You finally found inner peace, which the world is afraid off. Yess, afraid of! And to tell you quite frankly- I'm a little bit scared of it too. The thing I wanted most- a stable, calm every day life- is here now. My fiancee tells me we are nesting. ;)
How cute is that? We had our fair share of hard-core partying and now we have our own peace, our own world in which everything is cozy. I have to admit, I'm not used to this kind of life, but I see now it's very important to achieve this before having children. Children need peace, comfort, steady life. I am preparing slowly and with ease for our wonderful wedding and beautifing our 2 bedroom home for children. I'm not pregnant yet, but we are planning a child after we get hitched, and I can't wait. People around me tell me I have a certain glow, like I was pregnant, maybe it's because I'm happy, calm, satisfied, finally. And I see my calmness has a big impact on my darling- he is slowly turning into the most soft, gentle, shining future husband, future father.
I CANNOT WAIT! :)
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