It's All Saints day, the day when we remember all the dead. I like to remember quite a few people: my grandmother and grandfather, my great grandmother which I can hardly remember. My grandfather was a special person. He was happy all the time, he was singing and enjoying every moment of life. I am very sorry that my husband didn't have the chance to meet him. The thing I remember most from his last months was- he just wanted to know my boyfriend, maybe so that he could be peaceful that I am taken care of. I love him and I miss him still. Months after his death I still could not believe he's dead, and was still hoping I will come home and he would be sitting in his beloved chair. One day we were standing around the grave on All Saints day and looking at our ancestors' names on the stone, soon my grandfather's name was on it. This year I have the same feeling about my father. He is very ill. I hope his name won't be on the stone too soon. :(
There are also people that I'm not related with, but had a big impact in my life. One of them was Damijan Kurent, a fellow citizen, an older man with big ears and a constant smile on his face. He never forgot to put that one on :) He was one of those people that is very important for his home village. He made a big impact by employing many people in his firm, writing songs and being very present in culture. But what I liked and noticed most was his charisma, his playfulness and the way he was so simple. He achieved much, but was never uptight. He was a great person.
Once I sat next to him in church. I and my friend were whispering and giggling. Then I looked at him, and he could hardly resist giggling too! I thought that was the sweetest and warmest feeling and memory I have of him. I saw him many times from the stage. I was usually hosting an event in our home of culture, and many times he would read something he wrote. He was so peaceful, happy, wonderful. I hope many people will still remember him for a long time, and that someone who knows him, will write a memoir about him. He influenced many and he thought me, how to live my life, be successful, peaceful, creative but still humble.
Another person that influenced me during his life was a psychiatrist dr. Andrej Marušič, who had a big impact on my professional career. He worked a lot and was a neverending student of life, just like me.
I must say that I had quite some loses in my life- loss of important people through death or ending of relationships. I think it's the hardest from going from a feeling you will spend all your life with a person to a part were this person isn't even a part of your life anymore. I am usually happy to see an ex boyfriend doing good in his life. I wish them all the best.
I also lost many pets. My last pet, a dog named Ron, was in our family for 13 years, and I get emotional thinking of it. But now I'm prepairing everything for a new pet to come in my home.
I found the easiest way to get over a loss is to know- all of those people will always be a part of your life, because they are in your heart. Remember that, when it gets the hardest.
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